smiling on my dying mind
a dream half made and half became
here i am now for the endless beauty
a dream half made and half became the soil i'm sweating
where even the fields glow out an instinctual role
a drink half made and half became keeping the wick steady
fear it comes how i can't deny the pull of outside with everything dangling
the seasons have changed but have been half retained
and i keep cranking through the goodwill and trust of the room turned to dust
but of what all the writing
a dream half made and half insane until this sink blows out of its moisture to mold
it's as they say in wave after wave on this ground grows a hairy chest soaked
as hard as it's made, it came and it came, at once letting go
the 49th parallel, at least
giving the sun eyes and dancing on rain clouds to swing
it's as simple as any trick you can buy, follow the blood down to water that stinks
laying naked across the sky, from the weather to love it grinds on me
looking everywhere but inside as proof to my lies that i can't see
a sick seeker of simple delight, kicking against the time twisted dream
pretending i'm off by surprise, building all my own parts to the machine
sending out a star to find beyond the 49th parallel, at least
and sending back a kiss to mind, forgiving of life so i can just breathe
i know you're soft
kill in clown clothes, breathe in the mold
the worried face of you begging for relief
silently screaming to the sky, another soft suicide
i know you're soft
say fuck it with me, who wears the ghosts anyways
when the friendly face of doom is walking down the street
letting go and fucking off, laying down and giving up
i know you're soft
with a fist of their blows in our bare hands
your belly was the sun, melting at their feet
it's just so who you know and feeling out the magic touch
i know you're soft
so i gave it all for the life of me
in fear my telepathy is praying for a fee
read these words back to me, life is easy and you are free
i know you're soft
an addendum to a dream
when the time came, time made me vacant
with only moments to know, witnessing it spray
the divine scent over them with faces naked
the light makes and the light takes us all away
walking uncertain steps to songs wept in the dream
in delusion in disillusionment, stay away from me
my mind made a light change revealing this sacred
it slowly centered the boat towards your name
the waves break a language waiting patient
as time swayed it made us think we're here to stay
walking uncertain steps to songs wept in the dream
in delusion in disillusionment, stay away from me
when the time came, time made me vacant
with only moments to know, witnessing it spray
the divine scent over them with faces naked
the light makes and the light takes us all away
walking uncertain steps to songs wept in the dream
in delusion in disillusionment, stay away from me
some quiet funky business
interesting to slay the old beast out of the country, the mark of the geese
one of these days they're going to skin you alive, repatriating your ass to the sky
and then i came and i came and i came and i came
all out of wonder, a permanent withdrawal; out of the parking garage, nature's call
the cloud can't beat the condo to exalt a brighter sun than we'd like to admit, if at all
and then i came and i came and i came and i came
this, i guess, is a recipe for mess. this, i suspect, is a gathering of facts
a fortune of pain when a covenant's made that the bodies you make are lifeless mistakes
and then i came and i came and i came and i came
oh well, how about the fluffy flowers flapping pheromones
and the tips of the petals blowing compassion til you're old
into kind darkness let the guilt go with the flow, silently outward wearing the coat of an old joke
and then i came and i came and i came and i came
for me it was nothing
from skipping stones to stripping bones
if you're just waking, we're just about home
it's a slope that we're on and off into the great unknown
addiction the burn, direction inward
and if it's perfect, it's hoping it's worth it
it's a joke they sold us on and took us from the great unknown
through rotting gums, and the holes that we tongue
what the body absorbs through the healing of its sores
you're getting old, you're in control, and getting off on how you cope
from skipping stones to stripping bones
if you're just waking, you're just about home
pull of deep end
and there i was standing as far as i knew, but you knew i was broken in two, trying to live it all down and soft spoken, aghast before the view with my head floating around, consumed
anyways, so there i was standing as mindless as my breathing as if i were believing that my breath was mine to keep heaving
when that heavy upper hand dropped, ticking the box, accountless to the calendar and clock, no time for i dunno, uh oh, it's nothing to do, sweating it all out and dripping it loud
so i was unfolding, consuming of madness, anything fun, the energy of animals, and drinking the sun
regardless of what i can't stop thinking, my brain rotting inside out tinkering
how about another delirious wow, attention to suffering away from the crowd
and it has to be hip to the light
and it has to be a clear summer night
and it has to be a literal dream
and it has to be breathing with me
and there i was standing as far as i knew, but you knew i was broken in two, trying to live it all down and soft spoken, aghast before the view with my head floating around, consumed
a gentleman's agreement with the truth
if i had to love again, it's a hell of a long time to hold my breath
some are stuck in the ground and some are loose in all perfections of truth
i went down dreaming but i came back screaming and i woke up in time
to bury this dream in the holocene, it's a hell of a long time to care
to piss it all away deliberately, now we're getting somewhere
i went down leaning but i came back with meaning and no reason why
from silence to shrinking to violently freaking and modestly hoping in here
in my own handwriting and the endless driving and no one to know that i'm scared
my head is shrinking or my hands are growing, acceptance is mine
changing the seasons to secret meetings, holding my nose to the air
and no end to citing all the secret meanings, holding the truth without care
i went down dreaming but i came back screaming, and i opened my eyes
be gentle with my number
in the hands of lonely men, long enough it's all my fault i guess
there's no god walks around with headphones on
in the hands of family men, the world transcends in all forgotten plans
be gentle with my number when you call me like the thunder
i lost my temper at the seams
breathe me out
i could feel it in my dancing knees
can you feel the bones
forty years ain't what it used to be
breathe me out
all of a sudden wanting free
can you feel it close
can you feel it close
write my head wrapped around a mindless bend
when it laments and holds its breath, i guess i'm meant if i'm so content
be gentle with my number when you call me like the thunder
a quiet day for the market
the mystery of shooting yourself into the sun for no fucking reason why
with an honest dream flickering in the remaindered light
we're going out of our minds
it's a hopeless thing to just leave whispering in a prayer for the world
while falling to death in the country
if witnessing life shimmering and burning out is evidence of letting you down
then we haven't been listening very well
but now that you already fell we're crawling back through living hell to get to the sun
we're going out of our minds, while falling to death in the country